sitting.waiting.wishing.

White Feather.

2010-03-18T10:56:00.000+08:00

Because these are made up with a fair amount of twisted facts happening in my daily life.

My version of blogging. LOL.

www.imaginary-fables.tumblr.com

Worlds are Made of Hello and Goodbye.

2010-02-24T20:29:00.003+08:00

Came upon the title above from my friend's personal message. The last time I wrote about Hellos and Goodbyes were of a totally different reason. I was young and naive. I was hurt and I needed to lash it out somewhere. I was actually hoping that someone might read that entry and leave a comment or so for me just because I believe in hope. But those hopes does what the world of realism and fantasy does best. Leaving a temporary band aid. Most of the time, the skin underneath it still raw is left exposed and then you are left broken.

The gift of everlasting hope was always and will always be right in front of my door step. In this deep slumber, must I wake up to the sound of hope that is knocking on the door of my heart.

This blog has lost its purpose to blog. Publicly anyway.

In a world of hellos and goodbyes, this is goodbye.

Painted Stripes.

2010-02-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

Love is...

Rummaging through all the cookies and cakes.

Meeting your cousin for supper.

Love is...

Confusing at times, a mess for the most parts but always always beautiful.

Kit Kat.

2010-02-13T16:39:00.000+08:00

Love is...

Taking a break.

Awaking Sleep.

2010-02-12T15:27:00.000+08:00

Love is...

Feeling like you're in a dream even though reality is staring straight back at you.

Love is...

Being rebellious.

Being in 'whee' mode 24/7.

Branch's Lullaby.

2010-02-11T13:34:00.000+08:00

Love is...

A leap of faith. A sea of hope.

Love is...

Waking up to you.

Explaining your uni's schedule to your mum; verbally.

You Don't Know Me.

2010-02-10T23:41:00.003+08:00

Love is...

Trying to finish a pint of icecream together.

Watching one fall into a deep slumber.

Love is...

Wishing each other a happy early Valentines.

Fight For This Love.

2010-02-09T10:39:00.000+08:00

Love is...

Tasting the bitter within its sweetness.

2010-02-08T02:28:00.000+08:00

Love is...

Always looking forward to the next day, and the next.

The Boys Are Back.

2010-02-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

Love is...

Keeping your late wife's favourite dress, neatly pressed and hung in the wardrobe.

Hope.

2010-02-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

Love is...

"Mum, I got a tattoo."

"Hand me my glasses."

"Dad, I got a tattoo."

*silence*

Love is...

A string of laughter over senseless conversations right to the doorstep of 'DVD' shop.

Forest Gump.

2010-02-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

In conjunction with Valentines and just because I can use that as an excuse to do this.

Love is...

Giving your most precious possesion to the one you love.

The Irony of Contradiction.

2010-01-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

Crazy love.

Clearly misunderstood.

Pretty ugly.

Bittersweet.

Your support would really mean alot to me. Thank you and you. :)

I Fell Right Through the Cracks.

2010-01-27T09:05:00.003+08:00

Morning, morning people. :) Afternoon, afternoon people.

Today marks the second last day of my ielts class, the day before my speaking exam, two days before the rest of the exam of which I have just most recently am really nervous about. Well, at least as recent as just this morning. Sigh, I'm even starting to question the motivation behind sitting for this exam. But I trust (have to) that everything happens for a reason and that with time He will reveal His plans for me.

If there was a jar, empty, before your eyes.

What would you fill it with?

Night, night people.

Pang.

2010-01-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

#1.

It probably weighs less than a pound. This lump that is blocking both the airway to her lungs and the passageway to her stomach. Its invisibility proves harmlessness but the pain is unexplainable. Yet, only a well of tears somehow seems calming.

#2.

The only reason her heart is beating is because she is breathing the air through his nose. She is breathing him. She is breathing hope.

Pang; A sudden sharp spasm of pain, A sudden sharp feeling of emotional distress.

It used to be so easy and I really treated this as an empty canvas where I'd freely write without care. It used to be so easy.

2010-01-21T03:13:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, beauty is in the attempt. :) Need I say more?

Cheers.

2010-01-18T13:28:00.002+08:00

I think I am lost; in shades of grey.

Cheers to that?

Happy New Year's Eve.

2009-12-31T01:02:00.002+08:00

There were four questions. I vaguely remembered them all. But juggling and piecing them together summarizes to this; ' Who are you today and Who were you before? '

Happy New Year's Eve folks. As much as I want not to, I think it's gonna be a rather quiet one this year. :)

2+2.

2009-12-29T01:27:00.001+08:00

We both do not know. But I hope, yes, I hope. We'd know.

Fill Your Own Blanks.

2009-12-27T02:35:00.001+08:00

Naked.
Bare skin.
Traces.

Lovely.

2009-12-15T07:05:00.003+08:00

Fear not; my fingers are stretched and the tips of my fingers are ready to do the tapdance. :) I just need these bones to crack out of the laziness. On the sidenote, I am where my heart is; home.

Raining Words.

2009-11-21T08:44:00.002+08:00

Dark grey clouds hangs over your head but the invisible string which is usually tied to your jacket did not exist. You are not attached to the gravity that the clouds has upon you, but still, you do not budge. You stay. Stagnant. Waiting for the clouds to get darker, heavier, and finally the downpour. Ironically, you anticipate with full knowing that you'd be drenched. Maybe you were tired of moving away. Maybe subconsciously, you think that the invisible string still exist. Maybe, you just needed to be soaked. Or maybe, it's all of the above. Your legs are tired from trampling over the thoughts in your mind repeatedly. Your heart is convinced that no matter what happens, you wouldn't be able to fight the law of gravity. And your soul needs to be flooded, for the times of draught it has been experiencing. And so, it happens. Then what?

We are often tired. Be it, physically or emotionally. Either way, we are human. But sometimes, we think that we are built. Machines. And we work our minds like it's some sort of gadget but we forget that unlike any other machinery product, it can't be -serviced. There isn't an expiry date to it neither is there a button that resets.

So, maybe what you are waiting for is the downpour. Just know that with each downpour, the clouds will part. Maybe, what you are searching for is the nearest exit out of your mind and the grandest entrance into your heart. Well, know that it was never locked.

Word for the day: faith.

A lil' heads up; I won't be around for the next 8 days! :) Well, at least not around the blogsphere lah. :b

Mine's On Shuffle and So is Yours.

2009-11-19T16:27:00.002+08:00

We are separated by...

5 feet of distance
4 people between us
3 stops before our destination
2 pair of earphones
1 heartbeat.

But we are connected through the sounds of the same melody ringing through our ears.

Separated but very much in sync. I guess we'll never know, will we?

One more paper to go but why do I feel like I'm already on holiday? =D

One Way Mirror.

2009-11-16T17:49:00.002+08:00

The scorching sun pierces his skin like pricks of a million tiny needles. He races to the nearest tree and sat himself under an umbrella of leaves. But still, he paced around the empty grounds, anywhere but beneath the cool shade. He found comfort in the stinging of the summer sunshine against his sweet olive skin. Anything feels better than the splint of glass making its way through the flesh of his heart. An excrutiating pain that no branches, no leaves, no cool breeze, could relieve the ache. Finally, he ends the conversation and held onto his phone tightly. With all five fingers wrapped around it, he silently wished that he could strangle and suffocate it. But really; what he wanted was to suffocate the life out of the conversation which he would never forget.

The glass remains, but at least the sun is starting to set.

4 more days till I embrace nothingness. :) Well, at least the nothingness of exams and uni but in the arms of fully enjoying the fullness of h-o-l-i-d-a-y! :D

Air Cycling.

2009-11-12T20:20:00.003+08:00

The clock resting on his bedside table stopped ticking, but the one in his mind sent an alarming tune through his whole body which shook him out of his bed. It is a good thing that the mechanism of putting on his attire for the day is not as complicated. Well, that was the least of concern to him. All he could think about is getting his butt on the bus, for his work is at stake and he definitely cannot afford to create some sort of flaw for his boss to magnify upon.

Dashing through the doors of his home, he hoped he did not wake his wife. After all, the sun was still fast asleep over a blanket of a 5 am sky. 5 minutes before Bus 850 arrives and he runs across the streets in a somewhat disoriented manner; hoping to catch the bus or else it would take another hour wait for the next bus. And a huge sigh of relief, as he catches the bus just as it stopped at a traffic light. The door swung inwards and he muffled some sort of apologetic string of words to the driver. Well, the start of a morning would not have been complete without him on the bus. And of course, the start of his morning could have been worse if he did not wake up to the biological clock ticking somewhere in his mind.

I'm not cut out in writing interesting posts about my daily life lah...neither am I a good writer. So I'll just wring out whatever's left of my so called "creativity" but in reality it's like a record with scratches on it. The tune, skipping at every few beats of a number. Mixed with the inspiration I find in my daily life. :)

Step By Step.

2009-11-08T12:09:00.016+08:00

And first in line... :)

Mount Dandenong Trip with me Housemates!

Wah, I feel a lil' rusty already trying to blog about updates in my life. o.O Anyway, thanks to feL for her ingenious ideas ;) We picked a few good spots from the lot and came up with #1; morning market #2;scones at the famous Ms. Marples and walking through the stretch of cute lil shops that sold cute lil' things! #3; lavender farm and to fill our tummys at the end of our day journey, #4; dinner at Sofias :) The weather was perfect and the company was perfect-er (haha). The drive was abit challenging but nevertheless we made it to all of our destination safely! Thanks feL! :D (drive manual summore) :b

Carribbean Gardens and Market filled with an assortment of goodies! :) from a variety of sweets to fruits,vege, and a nice atmosphere... I don't mind doing my groceries here every week! Lol

The delicious scones! Of course, alongside fresh cream and strawberry jam! muahaha!

Strawberry Waffle. yumm.

Quiche! which my roomie knows how to make also lah actually... Lol. Whee I just figured out how to resize my pics! Thanks to my roomie! Wakaka.

Me housemates! feL.shan.xuetying.me.and qing. :)

Lavender Farm! By the time we reached there, the shop which sold none other than lavender merchandizes/cafe was closed! :( But, the shop owner was nice enough to open the shop for us ! Of course lah, xuetying and fel gave them business... HEEhee

Dinner at Sofias and their risotto (which I failed at replicating the last time I tried T.T)

Me month stay with the lovelies in the Glen!

This is really the reason why I haven't been blogging... Yep, too busy preoccupying myself with the lovely Kong Sisters in the heart of Glen Waverley! ;) Oh well, the hugee assignment which were due right smack in the middle of my placements took up a fair amount of my time that of which I shan't discuss no more! T.T Anyway, my stay at the Glen and placements at Dandenong came to a bittersweet ending after I gave vannie the tightest hugg and kissies on her cheeks, a nice assuring i-will-see-you-soon-hug to meiyin and cuddles to kiffymiffyriffymufufufu (i'm lost) HAha... I had nothing but a BLAST with the girlies and what better way to describe em' if not, with visual effects! ;)

Dinner at T.G.I.F

The two lovelies who always makes me feel at home! (By the way, if home is where the heart is, then a piece of my heart lies with the both of you... whee).

Steak with butter mushroom sauce and long beans as side. :)

Jack Daniel's Rib with fries! Seriously good!

Chicken salad! We need those vegies! heee

We had dessert as well but didn't take a picture of that... It was an outrageously outrageous Friday's Sundae! HAha... Remember reading somewhere that women actually have two stomachs, one for mains and the other for dessert, always! ;) Lol. More than that, we had a train of conversation (insert) laughter and (cough) deep matters on the table that night too! Aih, missing those convos already!

:( I only have this picture that reminds me to Tim... Sorry Tim! HAha. We had many good times throughout my stay (Friday night's-random-chillin'-session-at-van's, studying-session which also turned into dinners, burito-session, badminton-filled-conversations lol) and this is one of the many when you came over and made us some baked pasta! :D Which is what I'm gonna be making tonight for my housemates! WAkaka... See, go stay with girlfriend, broadens my culinary skills as well! ;)

One morning, Van and I discovered the yumminess of bagels. Thus, we went bagel-istic! Not funny, we ate bagels for the next consecutive dayS! HAha...

Our breakfast; poached egg; mushrooms; (we also had cream cheese and smoked salmon); and of course, BAGELS!

Last Girls Night Out before I headed back to Bundoora At Shira Nui

Van and Meiyin took me to this Japanese Restaurant which really defined quality over quantity. You see, there are only two sessions available for bookings (either at 6pm or 8 pm). We were there at 6 sharp. :)

Missing ya gals already!!!

Sashimi and sushi mariawase (I think.) HAha...

Goten Mori (which is basically a platter of five different appetizers) You see the center lemon piece? It has oysters in em and for someone who isn't a huge fan of oysters, I'd say that it's YUM-O level reaches err the heights of my room ceiling. Wakaka...

Of course, black sesame creme brulee... :)

Cream Cheese Crepe with black sesame ice cream. :)

The next day, my aunt came and picked me up...And so it was time to bid Glen farewell. Bye-bye bus station which I so faithfully walk to almost every single morning and seeing the regular passengers hopping in and out of the bus. Seriously, I could even remember at which stop, who is gonna come up the bus! ( I should write about a bus post) Ok, yes I shall. HAha. Bye-bye, Glen Centro... where I'd always go and do my groceries for the week and peer into the windows of the shops every once in a while... Bye-bye Grand Tofu, where I tapau-ed dinner twice and Ah-Lik (the guy who works there) is expecting my return and well I was too lazy to explain to him that I'm only at Glen for a month. TEEhee. Bye-bye 2/11 Fairhill Parade and the two lovelies whom I miss oh so dearly! But I know we'll see each other again like, soon ? :)

Anyway, one last update then I'm done! Woah... this post has taken me three whole days to complete! That's a first timer man. By the way, this is all for you helena lim my babyboo! :)

And to complete this post:

The Return to Bundoora, Swan Lake and Dinner at Ying Thai! :)

With none other than my housemates! Whee... By the way, when I was young; probably about 7-9 years old? I remember feeling very upset that my sister got to watch the Swan Lake and I didn't okay! Lol. Didn't understand why I was too "young" to watch such beauty and grace on stage... Ok, maybe I was too young. I was too young lah. HAha. Watching it now (as I'm turning 21 might I add...). I understood my dad's decision to not allow me to go with him then. Randommm :b

Tom Yum Seafood which was sour enough! >.<

Crispy pork skin salad...My favourite! :)

The triplets! Wakaka... me.xuetying.fel.

No need introduction liao. You should know them by now ;) Wah, I look so tall here but that's because I was wearing a 3 inch heel! :b which then leads me to another story... one that consist of a bare sole! Not that it's not normal for me. Sigh, if only I was that tall. Lol. Anyway, Swan Lake was so good! :D Although the first act was abit lengthy for me and I have to admit, there were times when my mind were pacing about. And my eyes were squinting at times... but the performance was too good! :) Thanks Qing for doing the Ticketing stuff and feL for driving us to and fro! :)

So, I guess that pretty much sums up my whole of September-Early November... I forgot how it feels like to update about the happenings around me. HAHa. Hope I didn't do such a crappy job! :b

Mirai E.

2009-10-18T11:16:00.003+08:00

I had to literally hold on to the neck of it or lean it against my shin at a certain angle so that it would not topple over. But maybe, I didn't have to. Maybe it would not crash onto the carpeted ground. I don't know, I never tried. I sit and I wait while mentally going through the notes and key areas of the song which needed more focus i.e. areas which I'd be more than likely to screw up. If I had the time, I would take it out of the sleeve and place it on my thighs; especially when my photographic memory becomes slightly distorted.

The process of waiting could sometimes be nerve wrecking but most of the time, exciting. Overjoyed, if it was my favourite tune. Excited mostly, because it is the time when I leave everything by the door and walk into the room where I could scream every ounce of stress through the strumming and plucking. Most of the time, not being loud and hard enough would be offensive.

It used to feel like forever waiting to be called in and a second before I ushered myself out of the door, greeted by my dad. I'd intentionally forget about the worries I left by the door like a forgotten umbrella and look forward to the next cycle. :)

Giselle in Boots.

2009-10-08T06:23:00.003+08:00

Sweet Morning to you and you and you, :)

Even though the due date of my next assignment is approaching (MONDAY!) and my heart jumps into a puddle of nervousness, still, I refuse to generate these lazy bones into putting in the extra effort MUCH needed for this essay. T.T I am seriously lazy unimaginably... but but how can I not blog about this sweet morning. With the full moon of the sun and cool breeze. Don't you long for these days minus the heap of work?

Holidays; I await upon your arrival almost impatiently but boy I'm ready whenever you are. ;)

Lover of my Soul.

2009-10-06T07:26:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the days passes by like flashes of lightning before me. Other times, it is like waiting for a budding rose to bloom. I groan to the sound of birds chirping in the air but find delight in the tapping sound of rain on my roof. That, is how much I miss you. When I am heavily soaked in rain, ironically, I still feel light on the inside. That, is how much I miss you.

I stare at the vast blue sky but all I think about is the pair of blue eyes which is vast and filled with an endless amount of love. The pair of eyes that stares back at mine, which speaks of the purest of love and sings of a sweet lullaby.

I am holding on tight to the memories we shared, tugging it close to my heart and leaving space for more. I am anchoring all of my hopes in you; who whispered those three words into my ears, my heart and my soul.

This is my third, hopefully second time writing my first love letter to you.

With all my heart.

Why do people stop writing love letters?

Kick in the Sand.

2009-09-28T20:56:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to blog about but I have the urge to. To blog. Blog about how I'm feeling skippa-dee-doo. Skippa-dee-doo as I hand in yet another assignment. Another assignment which isn't the last assignment. Last assignment due on the 26th. 26th of September, somebody turned 21! Whee. Whee, I started on another TVB drama with feL. feL is talking to Daniel. Daniel is in Singapore. Singapore, I hope to visit in January if all goes well. :)

:) because you can if you want to.

One Week.

2009-09-23T15:12:00.004+08:00

Monday

Tuesday

Wednesday

Thursday

Friday

Saturday

And they lived happily ever after...

A week. Sometimes, that's all it takes. :)

Ctrl+Alt+Del.

2009-09-21T18:13:00.002+08:00

When your life seems likes it's being covered by a blanket of troubles and what surrounds you is nothing but darkness, the irony of being covered with layers of fear sends a shiver down your spine. All you want is to come undone. Strip bare off everything that is slowly suffocating your breath. But the thought of nakedness leaves you blank and so you lay, covered in your own nakedness, in the dark.

Life can get so dark sometimes that you even lose yourself in your own darkness.

But, the 'but' that comes with a vicotorious trumpet sound. the 'but' that brings hope.

the 'but' of a faith. Conquers all fears, all anxieties, all darkness...

Does anyone need a restart? Time is never waiting but always wanting.

Currently listening to 'The Time Traverler's Wife' Soundtrack (even before watching the film!) HEEhee...Thanks qing! :)

Friday Flowers. (Not So)

2009-09-19T07:46:00.003+08:00

Was really inspired to start my own series of FridayFlowers after following a blogger cum interior designer (http://www.absolutelybeautifulthings.blogspot.com/) :) I hope I'm not plagiarizing what truly is inspiring to my soul.

Flowers from our backyard and the 'vases' came from project 09-09-09. Have a meaningful weekend ahead filled with a coffee cup full of happy moments! :D

P.s. I need to go hunt for actual vases! Any ideas? :)

As Easy As A-B-C.

2009-09-16T15:04:00.005+08:00

The first few words are always the hardest. The first few words always get knotted up which clogs the flow of your thoughts. Maybe because all the words are walking on air in slow motion and waiting for them to fall into the right places is like counting the number of stars across the sky. So, I sit and stare. I know that I can never quite comprehend these unspoken words of my heart. I can never put a melody to the lyrics of my feelings. Maybe this is what you call; having the writer's block. When the words are floating in the air, it's hard to weigh them down with your mind and piece them together into perfect sentences that actually makes sense. These are some of the words that are waiting to be anchored down into the sea of my thoughts.

Smell.
Church.
Pink grapefruit.
Assignments.
A song.
Waiting.
Dreams.
Assignments!
Heart.

Don't ask. HAha. Sometimes, a word is all you need to make all the difference. A word can give you more hope that a thousand words put together. What is your favourite word?

P.s. I am sensing a flood of more random posts. Lol.

Clean the Windows.

2009-09-12T07:32:00.004+08:00

Tip-Tap Tip-Tap. :) Saturday morning everyone but the sky spells out a gloomy and possible downpour late this afternoon. Even though the weather forecast *quote* sunny, warm, and crip (?). That is why, life is unexpected that way.

My housemates and I went down to the city for lunch and retail therapy! Whee. Do some head rotating exercise! =.=

On the way... Speaking of which, it brings me back to memories of when I used to take the bus almost every other weekend/day to the city. Had some really fond memories of those rides. You know, the kind where you just sit and have random thoughts. HAHA.

My one and only babyboo :) *I'd lend you my smile if I could borrow your tears* <3>

2009-09-09T20:08:00.001+08:00

Operation 09/09/09 failed. Happy September 9th of 2009 anyway. :) P.s. Receiving random gifts like these brightens your day!

How Have You Been?

2009-09-09T06:37:00.002+08:00

It's funny- not the *haha* that was a really funny joke funny. It's funny- the kind that clicks on your thinking bulb resulting in a bright yellow glow in that dark mind of yours. It's funny- the kind of funny that occurs when you are thinking of someone - out of the blue.

Ever since you turned your back and took the road you think was the best for you, we have not heard from you since. You chose to walk the path, you chose not to see eye to eye with us, you chose not to listen. But then again, who am I to blame? We chose not to try hard enough because trying has no limit. We chose not to understand but constantly placing all your faults in the spotlight. Us, being audience with our ears closed and eyes wide open, we were appalled by your acts of 'embarrassment'.

Giving up is seldom the best solution. But it seems that everyone has chosen to nestle themselves comfortably at that.

Though you've turned away - or so it seems. We all know that, we'd embrace you into our homes in a minute. Heck, in a second if that's what it takes for your return.

Dear X, one thing I just want to know. How have you been?

See, I told you I'm sucha morning person. Woke up at 6:15 this morning because I missed the feeling of waking up to a dark morning sky, drinking coffee at 6:30 am while I'm penning down my thoughts in my private journal (nyehehe) and just morning-dreaming about the rest of the day.

Reflecting on the beauty of His words (which I have to admit is a rare occurence) =/ But nevertheless inspiring and a breath of fresh air.

Friends (the Circle of).

2009-09-07T19:51:00.002+08:00

Kini, aku tujukan lagu ini untukmu.

Bahu ini, untukmu sandar,
Telinga ini, untukmu isi dengan titisan-titisan sedih and pilu,
Hati ini, untukmu kongsi buat selamanya.

:)

Friends, you always have a place in this heart of mine.

Gooood morningg! I really think that I can blog better in the morning than at night. I am a morning person to the core. Fell asleep at 10 last night! 0.0 Well, that is, upon reading a text on schizophrenia. Who would have thought eh. Lol. Oh well today is another day... And I hope that you'd have a wonderful new day. whheee.

Sail Away.

2009-09-06T11:51:00.001+08:00

This hope is reaching the brim of my heart. It's almost too heavy for my heart to contain. Its weigt increasing with each passing day. If it was a cloud, there'd be a great downpour of hope this afternoon. May your heart never stop hoping. :)

A Blue Sky Holiday is what I Need.

2009-09-05T07:50:00.003+08:00

Man am I getting the hang of this... I'd make Helena a proud mama WHEEE :D Anyway, I'm currently on a six week break now. WOOHOOT. Wait, a break with a stack of assignments. Still counted as a break? *Eeek*

The four little scatterbrains went for a house outing yesterday :D (minus fel :( who is soaking up the nice and warm sunshine in Singapore)

In effort of convincing myself that THIS is NOT a break...

A break is when you have absolutely nothing on your mind and well, that's excluding all the thoughts and planning of fun-filled activities.

A break is when you worry less about your life and let life worry about you.

A break is when you smile even when the rain is pouring down on you and the cold wind blowing in your face

A break is not a break. At least, not until you feel that it is.

In everything, find rest in Him. And you'll find 'breaks' in life so much more meaningful. :)

Warm Rain.

2009-09-04T09:16:00.004+08:00

"I've spent most of my life finding logic through equations and formulas, but the most logical discovery I've found, is the unexplainable feeling that lives here, and here."

It's not those beautiful eyes.
It's not these hands that I hold onto.
It's not that secret smile we both share.

But it's this intangible force that brings us closer.
It's when we were the pens to the diary of time.

It's loving you because the beauty I see in you outlives your reflection in the mirror.

You, are who everyone is hoping for.

Random on Repeat.

2009-09-02T13:07:00.004+08:00

Today smells of spring :) As inviting as that may seem, the wind is still considerably cold BRR. Anyway, yesterday Keryong and I had one of the most random outings. HEEhee.

Popping in and out of shops that sells the most random-est things. More random than that, we were having fun looking at em and ended up purchasing random items. Or at least we thought of lah...

Here we are at a random bar/pub that we decided to have lunch and randomly, order two glasses of beer. Beer+random chatting = :)

Keryong, her massive lasagna, and her beer on taps (forgot the name of the beer)

Me, my pot pie and cold cider stream yumm

After that, we walked and talked. Laughed and let the night wind blew us back to our humble houses.
P.s. I am looking forward to my 23rd birthday already! wakaka

ooops, forgot to rotate! This, is part of my table... :) Spring oh breeze your way through and settle in each of our hearts the warmth we are longing for.

cheers.

Stone on Water.

2009-08-31T20:19:00.002+08:00

With two cans kicked off the pyramid. I'm left with Seven more. *smackshead*

Lou Mai Kai by ShanShan. And it was Yummmeeee! :D

HOT RICE COOKER!

My roomie XuetYing :)

Will miss youuu LAH! kekeke.

The Space Between.

2009-08-28T22:08:00.004+08:00

Like a game of pass-the-parcel, the music stopped, as if intentionally and there they stood. Side by side. The parcel, now in each of their hands and whole-heartedly, they completed the task. Upon completing the task, for a splitting second, it was as if their eyes did what no other part of your body could do. To touch one another’s longing heart.

Yes, I write of people around me. :)

Spicy HotPot Here I Come!

Ipoh Mali.

2009-08-19T21:50:00.003+08:00

Am tired of this incredibly slow process of vomiting out a thousand words on an ethical decision making process in accordance to a CASE SCENARIO o.O And so I will burrow my way through this space and pen my thoughts down before I head to dreamland.

We were literally screaming our hearts/lungs out...belting to the lyrics of 'Wei Yi'. Waving our 'traffic light' glow stick from left to right. :) And even though he was the main star of the evening but most of all, the company, chats and laughters, followed by a late night phone call was what made the night brighter than it already was. If only I could re-visit that night again... Maybe tonight lah. In my dreams. Lol.

I miss. Emo-ing. with you.

Lup-Dupp.

2009-08-17T09:14:00.004+08:00

I was given the opportunity these past few weeks to build and form new shapes and sizes of a thing called bond. :)

P.s. Does anyone wanna go shopping? TEEHEE

The Fine Print.

2009-08-07T20:26:00.002+08:00

To every bottled life situation, we ignore the fine print at the bottom right corner. Ignoring any risks, and conditions. But sometimes, that is what life is. The fine prints are fine for a reason. ;)

Goodnight.

9:41 pm.

2009-08-06T21:41:00.002+08:00

kini ku resah
ku dengar hanya ulangan kaset yang minda ku mainkan

fikiran bagaikan asap yang tidak dapat ku kucapkan
terus mengaburi mata ku

aku, keluh.

Human or Dancer?

2009-08-05T23:02:00.003+08:00

To, moving along.

And

To, embarking on a new adventure. :)

Sealed with Lemon Juice!

2009-08-04T19:31:00.003+08:00

Tonight, I had the chance of living my childhood days by doing something that I had never done before in my days as a growing kid.! Did you know that lemon juice on paper = invisible ink which when exposed to heat, would expose the unexposed? o.O hahaha!

Ta-Dah! My shanshan drew this for me... obviously she must have meant it as well. Lol!

It's Where the Heart is.

2009-08-02T20:41:00.003+08:00

Time for me to step aside from the pavement of fantasy and walk along the path of reality. So here goes... In a nutshell, second semester begun and will come to an end in a months time o.O!

Placements will be right after that for another month o.O!!

And in between there's like a really really high stack of assignments o.O!!!

"I diligently ticked off each and every assignment..." This sentence always come to mind when I am facing a huge pile of assignments. And nope, I do not own authorship to that sentence, it was my cousin who wrote it in one of her blog entries 4 or 5 years ago. You know how some sentences just leaves an impression on your mind? This one definitely did on my mind lah. In fact, I was so motivated after that in modeling her trait of diligence but it soon became just a reminder on how diligent she actually is. =/

The North Wind might be taking my housemates and I on an adventure to a new place :) Which is both exciting and challenging at the same time. Thank you gals for being err unhappy for me Lol. You know what I mean lah... but it's not about making what you have 'the best' but it's about making the best of out what you have right! ;) And all the effort you gals put in from contacting the landlord to calculating the miscellaneous. :)

And since my blog is lacking of this:-

:) On the left: 'SummerLove' by Justin Timberlake. On the right: 'Out of my league' by StephenSpeaks.

Home is where the heart is.

Which is Yours?

2009-07-29T20:52:00.002+08:00

The familiar sound made between the dessert spoon and the champagne glass marks the beginning of my favourite moment. While others may be busy sweeping the crumbs of pastry from their dessert plates or sipping on their glass of wine, carrying with them conversations over the table. Some, may appear to be listening but only with their eyes while their hearts are floating along with their minds on really still water. They are in what we would most commonly term as; dreamland. I have to admit that I too, fall into those categories occasionally having the tick-tock of the needle as my cue.

But most of the time, it is my favourite moment. It is when I'd stop sweeping the crumbs, even if I see the waiter at the corner of my eyes collecting unfinished dessert plates. It is when the noise around me would dissipate or not, I'd get really annoyed of the increasing frequency. I'd listened with my eyes, heart and mind open. With them, casting a spotlight on the bride and groom.

It is the moment of sweet truth that the both of them share, shared and will share ringing through my ears. It is like a duet ballad composed and sung by the bride and groom. And by the end of it all, what fills the vessels in my body pumps hope to my heart.

That, is my favourite moment. Well, you could call it a segment of the evening in a wedding reception if you want to. Lol.

Which is yours? o.0

P.s. inspired by 21 dresses. Lol.

X.

2009-07-27T19:55:00.002+08:00

Back for more because second semester of uni has just begun and knowing me, I'd push all my assignments aside and fill my time with blogging WAKAKA.

9:49 am.

2009-07-21T23:53:00.002+08:00

The clouds are moving gently across the sky but it carries a shade that is not of a pretty sight. It's heavy and gray. As we anticipate the splish and splash, we are surprised by the falling of crows. [I vaguely remember reading about falling crows somewhere, maybe in the works of Gabriel lol.] Alive but lost in its battle against gravity. Splats of black covers the road and the screen of your car. Sometimes, that is how our mind works. The accumulation of thoughts are ugly and black waiting to burst and make marks of black splats all over the wall of your mind. Until it is fully covered in darkness will you stop.

12:09 am.

2009-07-20T00:01:00.002+08:00

Because the heart comprehends not what the eyes rests upon.

Because at the end of the day, all that is left are these bones but what fills the hollow spaces lives on.

The beautiful sight of a true beauty is felt, touched, smelled, smiled at, seen with the only organ that beats life.

2:21 am.

2009-07-19T02:15:00.002+08:00

Ke kiri, ke kanan
Aku maju terus ke hadapan
Akan tapi minda ku bercelaru ke semua arah

. Genggaman mu aku tunggu. nantikan. harapkan.

2009-07-10T19:19:00.004+08:00

A-hoy there dear readers! I know I know... No, actually I don't. Because being soaked in bliss and happy outings, going back to my roots of being a couch potato for the past week or so deduced an air of ignorance to this blog. HUhu.

But seriously, I am back and blogging and will be for the next couple of days. There are many issues that I am eager to pen them down, and give those thoughts my own signature stamp. ;)

White Roses.

2009-06-30T06:42:00.002+08:00

These fingers are heavy and the weight pulling them down is intentional, with a purpose and a reason solely because. Because I do not want to pen this down. I do not want to but I know, I need to.

Scents of fresh flowers filling the air, an endless stretch of rainbow paving the way, a place where sadness and despair have no meaning and a place where choirs of angels are singing praises to the Lord, an eternal life. Freedom; once and for all.

Although I will miss you so so much, although these tears trickles down my cheek every once in a while and my heart cringes with an aching feeling that you are no longer around, I know that I will battle those moments with a smile and comfort in knowing that you are with Him, you are free and most of all you are in paradise. :)

Thank you all so much for all the concern and prayers (fel :) Life moves on but life that moves along with Him as the focus point and the center ultimately lifts my spirit and well these fingers of mine. I hope that everyone who is reading this would take the time, think, re-think, and just. believe.

I should have pictures up soon. Heh.

The Shorter The Better.

2009-06-23T12:30:00.002+08:00

Still very much alive and kicking I may add :) I just need more time. Space. And of course for exams to be overrrrr. Grrr.

The Truth Is...

2009-06-12T13:33:00.003+08:00

Perseverance was never in my list of vocabularies. Of course, it exists and I acknowledge its existence. Its meaning imprinted at the back of my mind but every now and then when it's dark and gloomy, when I feel as if the four walls has caved in on me, I crawl my way to the back of my mind only to find that the print has faded away. Its meaning, blurred and I forgot what it meant to persevere. I lose myself in the antonyms of persevering. Losing. Giving up. And eventually, death.

This has got to be one of my most intimate post. Didn't think you could have handled the truth but if you did I think you did a pretty good job.

The truth is... GOD listens. :) And of course, you and you and you.

I Can't Spell it Out For You!

2009-06-10T18:15:00.002+08:00

These concoction of emotions served in a huge fruit punch bowl. You'll have to taste it to know. Only concern is, I've ran out of bowls and I'm not sure if I'd want to restock.

The ramblings of a girl who thinks endlessly and unnecessarily continues...

The Sound of Rain.

2009-06-09T14:45:00.002+08:00

Pitter Patter. Pitter Patter.

Little hops on the rooftop tiles.

Sliding down the glass of the window.

Swaying its way with the wind.

Oh how I love being indoors. Just listening the rain. And The Notebook's OST (three days in a row) :)

In A Heartbeat...

2009-06-08T06:40:00.002+08:00

...I'd drop everything to go for a holiday.

...I'd spend the whole day doing nothing but have a marathon of movies lined up for me to indulge in.

...I'd spend the whole day reading books because I want to. Because I can. Because there'd be no exams.

...I'd open my heart just to hear Your voice and to feel Your presence in my life.

...I'd dream...for as long...as I want.

...I'd open a florist and sell handpainted umbrellas.

...I'd gather all of my courage into a ball of hope, letting it roll down the hills of love. (the amount is the least of concern)

In a heartbeat, what would you do?

The Cat and The Fishbowl.

2009-06-05T06:09:00.003+08:00

The rays of the morning sun shines through the lacy curtains, gently, it wakes you. Waking up looking forward to something is often one the best feelings. The day already begins with a smile :) Ribbons that ties the end of a long week to a million balloons; you'll set them free in the sky. Today, you've set your mind to be a care-free day. Nothing beats what's to come and with a hopeful heart you start of by picking your best Sunday dress. A floral one that drapes beautifully over your body.

The colours is already a feast to your eyes as it runs through the assortments of sandwiches (egg.tuna.salmon.vegetarian), homemade cookies and cupcakes, fruits (for digestion of course), lemonade; best thirst quencher and of course a bottle of wine as a finishing touch.

Knowing full well of the unpredictable force of mother nature, your heart sighs. But with glee because it's the image beauty of spontaneity and randomness. Looking forward to dive into a day where you let your heart speak, mind to process and stomach to digest. A day filled with laughter, tears, and a bundle of memories for you to keep. So, you set out feeling the feeling you felt when you were woken up by the morning rays. A feeling of looking forward.

What do you look forward to?

Next on my to-do-list : Picnic.

Cannot believe that I've not been on a picnic before.Lol.

On Pause and Resume.

2009-06-04T05:57:00.002+08:00

Bear with me will ya... You can be assured; double the number of times you use the toilet in a day, triple the number of phone calls you make in a week, quadruple the number of hearts you touch in a month, that I will not be blogging the moment I am on holidays. HAha. Shan, I can shakehands with your sister except it's my own blog that I'm spamming. I do feel sorry for those who read my blog because it can be a torture sometimes. Especially if you're hoping to view a substantial amount of pictures, be it updates of my life so far or random pictures of yummy housemates-cooked meals (YUMM), or just pictures to fill in your already-bored-to-death-day.

Instead I'm flooding my blog with more and more words.

If we were on 'pause' mode. When do we 'resume'?

Jumping Circles.

2009-06-03T07:42:00.002+08:00

Staring at the white-ness of this rectangular shaped box leads me to believe in the openness and vastness of my thoughts that can fill this space. Mostly thoughts of my heart which is filled with much hope and a mountain of memories. I like analogies and I like quotes. I like to make nonsensical comparisons.

My heart like a clogged pipe that is desperate to be unclogged and when that happens it'll be like a dam; an outburst of emotions. My heart like a triple decker house sandwich (the assortment of ingredients that would make your eyes cross with a tinge of disgust but your tastebuds would savour the combination oddly put together leaving you wanting for more).

My heart, contains a jar of memories that is carefully bubble wrapped; kept in a box labelled fragile. So fragile, in fact that it cannot be shipped out because I fear that if my mind opens the lid, it mind break into tiny molecules that my brain has receptors for. Receptors that would activate the molecules causing a chain reaction called - Reminis. A scientific term for reminiscing.

Sigh, am I really that bored ah. Or is this just procastination at its peak. BOOHOO.

Of the Man Behind the Mask.

2009-06-02T06:27:00.002+08:00

Picking an outfit can be a pain sometimes (especially being in the girls department where everything has to MATCH) From the top to the bottom, to accessories all running along the same colour scheme or at least the same theme. "Hmm, how about going for that look. Or how about just going in my plainest piece of clothing and then accessorise up! *beams* perks of being a girl. I know. Lol. Oh well, do not judge just yet because not everyone has that urge to leave their houses looking like a barbie doll on display. Except maybe without their chi-hua-huas bobbing their heads out of their Gucci handbags. (just.kidding) Sometimes, I have the urge trust me but there are times when I just dress for the sake of dressing. I dress to go not Go to dress.

Maybe I might grab a cardigan because you know how unpredictably cold it can be and strangely, it comes in waves. I could be taking off and putting my cardigan back on several times but in the end of it all my lazy bones would give in and the cardi stays on.

Usually, we're very decisive about the pick because we have been anticipating its release for a couple of weeks already. In that case, we would have already been well prepared and because of that, we'd not have to be apart of the long snaky line of people. Just the length that resembles an earthworm.

Time is the key factor. If we have it we'd use it for last minute toilet trips while those who does not have the urge would kindly help with getting the source of keeping our mouths shut. From water bottles to regular couple sets.

I have not encountered an experience with the guy and my identification. s**T means I look 18 and above. Oh well.

Finally, in the darkness and only having the beams of light at the end of each line as our guide. We have arrived safely and oh-so-comfortably we sit ourselves on the red ruby cushioned chairs. Or at least for as long as I remember it was comfortable enough that my butt could survive and not sore within and after the next few hours. My favourite part is having more anticipations for the next following weeks. (Blame it on the sneak previews and interesting trailers but I love em) :) Making fun of the advertisements "Kristyn, what's your husband doing with such muscly arms and dark sunglasses?" (oh.by the way, it's an animated version of an extremely muscled man who supposedly warns those who does not put their mobile phones on silent mode) If I remember correctly that is. Chatting away while the advertisements are playing and has already finished playing (with our shout-at-the-top-of-our-lungs-voices) which I was "Shh!" at before. Sigh, embarrassment is an understatement to that moment and I trust that we have all learnt our lesson well. HEEhee.

Silence floods over place as it becomes pitch black with only the light shining from what's in front of us. Of course, there would be occasional ringing of mobile phones "ALO ALO here and ALO ALO there" There would be screams and laughters, tears at the end even.

We'd be one of the last ones to leave. As if, respecting and acknowledging the credits (more like stretching and chatting about where we'd head off to for lunch or dinner or supper). I'd leave with an anticipation to the coming of another.

I am so going to watch a movie after my exams and during my holidays.

You know when people usually blog when they're super duper free? I blog when I am supposed to be NOT super duper free. *help me ahh*

50/50.

2009-06-01T06:52:00.002+08:00

And all that's missing is a spade. No, not the suit from a deck of cards. A spade that is used to dig a hole in the ground. Deep enough to bury everything that is within you. Things you never want anyone else to know. Secrets shoveled and buried safely along with the maggots and other soiled living creature. Once you've concealed the hole, and a new patch of innocent green grass grows on top of it. It'll be as if, untouched. Like an airtight container that is gasping for air, feeding on only the air within the walls of the container. Slow death they call it. Secrets. Do you have your own grave of secrets?

I miss writing about things that people can hardly understand. I miss expressing myself in a way that I do not care about what other people may think of me. I miss forming sentences that expresses an image of something so vivid that it scares the core out of myself. The level of wanting to express is at its maximum level of capacity and I'm afraid that I might just explode. Splattering the juice of everything that is within. Not.a.beautiful.sight. What do you miss?

It's June already and I'm not panicking for exams. I need therapy maybe.

2009-05-31T12:14:00.002+08:00

Just for you my babyboo :) Sorry lah hah hehe I don't know how to take nice pictures of myself lah and my dye is not obvious unless under strong sunlight. Wait under better lightings and nicer surroundings I will post one muchMUCH clearer one for you k! ;) much luv. Your arnab madu.

Little Miss.

2009-05-30T15:43:00.003+08:00

Something different :) Yau Char Guai wrapped in CheeCheongFan Yumms.

Little.Miss.Ultra.Violet.

I'm Losing You, and It's Effortless.

2009-05-30T15:04:00.003+08:00

Violet - Red. *nods* Yes, remember those two colours and let it sit in your mind for a while. Are you picturing the two blend together? Ok, good. Because it is the colour of my hair now at least until the root of my hair grows out lah. I know, bye bye virgin black hair of mine. Hello cleopetra. HAha. Because I have bangs now, vannie said I look like cleopetra and my housemate said I look like some egyptian queen. Wakaka.

Yum cha with vannie and meiyin was OMGOSHFULLandMAXIMUM.SATISFACTION. :D

Wanna see pictures ah? Wait lah.

I'll Lend You My Tears, If I Could Borrow Your Smile.

2009-05-29T06:13:00.002+08:00

It's like a routined business to me. It's slowly becoming a need and not a want. I'm dead serious. Drowning myself into the sea of blogs. As if, swimming in them, I would somehow find you. Coming across a link that rings a bell or has a catchy tune to it, a link that sounds very - you. I will click, but it only leads me to one disappointment after another. One day, I will blog about the blogs that I read daily. Most of them I do not know the blogger personally but can still dream about them sometimes. Yes, I dreamt of natalia and sonia before. Yes, I dreamt of suet li before also. LOL.

Today, shamay will be doing something she thought she'd never do. And she can only hope for the best! HEEhee. Worry not, I'll post up a pic of it after it's done. At least if it turns out lah. KEke.

Everyone reading this right now, I want you to believe. Even if it's something that does not exist. Believing is the first step. The rest will fall into place. Eventually. :)

Ooo-AaaYii-Yaai-Yaa-YiiAaa.

2009-05-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

If time was really gold. A block of gold bar that can be melted over the fire, poured out into different sized containers, let it cool and then arrange them in a neat stack in the freezer. Just remember to defrost. ;)

P.s. I love you. WAKAKAKAKA.

Because I am Lazy Bum.

2009-05-26T07:39:00.003+08:00

Dear Star,

Don't stop shining because it would make my day seem brighter and my mood seem happier with your brightness. My surroundings to be in a bright shade of yellow. Mmm. :) And also because I just hung my clothes out to dry. So, please, do not rain on my damp clothings. At least not for the rest of the day. Thank you. xoxo

Sigh, Just as i end with hugs and kisses the sky just turned grey. ISH. =/ Nonetheless, for those who are facing exams and people like me, who still have assignments to be handed in, remember that there's always something worth waiting for. ;)

cheers

Flying Sparks and Technicolors.

2009-05-24T20:17:00.002+08:00

It must have been right after recess or right after the subject teacher walked out of the corridor. Maybe, it was just one of those carefree days where there were minimal contact with the teachers and maximum chit-chatting sessions going on around the classroom. Vividly, I remember the noise, my metal pencil case with an animated drawing of five ducks, and a ball point blue ink pen. I can't remember who it was but it must have been either vannie or helena who asked me; who I had feelings for.

The part between the question was asked and my answer is a blur to me. Feels like the ink was smudged off. But my answer; is still clear and fresh in my memory. I question myself still, what made me come up with that answer. I never really quite knew but the feelings I felt that moment, words cannot describe.

I tore an edge of my test-pad paper and wrote with my blue ink ball point pen. Neatly, folded it in half and inserted in into my metal case pencil box. I wanted so badly to share my joy with my two best friends but I never got the chance to. At least not on that day because they never saw the piece of paper. Nobody saw. Nobody knew, the moment when there were flying sparks and technicolors in my heart bursting with overflowing joy.

BAH! I still have a blocked nose. But it's okay I will be fine. I will be fine. I will be? Sigh. Have you ever made the same mistakes over and over again and still, you don't learn from them?

P.s. : It was written, in capital letters, GOD. :)

Goodnight everyone.

Wanting to Want the Needs that I Need.

2009-05-23T21:33:00.003+08:00

Sigh, blogger's block. Blogger's block. Nose blocked. Nose blocked. And with this blocked nose I smell home. Mmmm :)

Blogger's block. Blogger's block. Nose blocked. Nose blocked. Even with mouthfuls of chilli paste and then cooling it off with three scoops of ice cream. It is still blocked.

Nose blocked. Nose blocked. But the shimmering lights of Melbourne City from Christabel's apartment and the company of 5 other girls (you.know.who.you.are:) unblocked my sense of humour and my sense of 'aunty-ness'.

Mind is blocked. I sure hope the abundance of mucous did not contribute in the process of blocking my mind from thinking which is what I really need right now.

goodnight

Secret Garden.

2009-05-19T18:18:00.003+08:00

It totally feels like I'm on holidays right now! What? I have exams in less than 3 weeks. 2 more assignments due. T.T Why do I not feel guilty? Why do I not feel the motivation to study? Wait, it's not like I'm consistently driven also. Ohman this.is.bad. Lol.

Went to watch Angels and Demons today with felicia and xuetying! Am glad that I did not have an extremely high expectation of the movie because it turned out great! :D It was super exciting, gets your adrenaline pumping. Now, I really want to go Rome. TEEhee.

And this is why I don't feel so guilty because I spend most of my time and energy thinking of 'What Ifs'. Sigh.

Life is Short but the List Goes On.

2009-05-17T07:22:00.003+08:00

MORRRNINNNNG (you.)!!! One thing that wouldn't make my day as bright and chirpy is to wake up to a dark and gloomy day. Today is the perfect example, looks like the sun is still sound asleep covering itself with a blanket of dark grey. Hurhur. T.T And that is why my friends, I do not really like the colour grey. I'd choose black over grey. Although, I do have to admit that when I'm indoors, my favourite sort of weather would be showered by light drizzles and a backdrop of a dark grey sky. (HAha, I'm weird) But everybody is weird in erm their own special sort of way. Right?

Speaking of which, I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels this way. That when that familiar tune strikes its chords. Ringing in your ear. The notes beats a familiar picture on your eardrums. Fine, at least that applies for me. HAha. Seriously, some songs really do remind me of a person, a place, a date, a moment, heck sometimes a scent. Lol. And I really want to share with all of you a few of the tunes that left a mark. In my heart. :)

In no particular order (because my ipod is on shuffle now). And so happen the song I'm listening to now does have a story to it. HAha. Freakky.

AnJing by JayChou.

Nope. It is not about a guy or anything emo. I first heard this song in Neway (1Utama) when I was karaoke-ing with the gals and sheryl requested for this song...HEEhee. She said this song made her cry before or maybe not but it's a really really sad song according to her. After listening to it, I was like. Woah. My chinese sucks but I roughly got the gist of the song lah. I'm not that bad ok hahah. After that, I downloaded the song right away. And whenever my ipod plays this song, I'll think of sheryl. Fyi, I always sing this song when I go karaoke. :)

Satellite by Natalie Imbruglia.

HAha. This songs would remind me of several things actually. Firstly, it was a birthday gift from helena and vannie (my bunnies!) One morning/day, helena called me...

helena : may ah, wanna ask you ya, do you have natalie imbruglia's cd?because vannie and i planning to buy a cd for van's sister... wanted your opinion.
me : err no woh.. I don't have her cds. but her songs are generally quite nice :)
helena : ohh ok ok thank youu! :D

*sneaky sneakyy* Lol. So, I wouldn't be able to listen to this song if it wasn't for them. ;)

I remember daniella (ex schoolmate) saying that she likes this song.

I remember telling kristyn that. And also, telling her that I think this song is nice too. She downloaded it and didn't think it was great. Silly girl. HAha.

Oklah there are so many songs that reminds me of definitely something. ! But I think you should already be bored by now. So, until the next song, I hope that you'll have a sun-tastic day today! :D Especially if you're going out and about. The sun isn't shining down here on my side but I definitely do hope it is greeting you with a wide smile this day!

A Box of Lilies.

2009-05-15T05:40:00.003+08:00

As the saying goes, all good things must come to an end. 3 weeks just passed by like a gush of wind, sweeping grains of sand off the ground. Sigh, I have to admit that at the begining I was looking forward to the end of it. Midway, I sometimes look forward to it. Come to the end of it all, I can't help but feel a slight sink in me heart. =/ Nevertheless, life goes on and as rash says; "You're gonna be working your whole life after you graduate. So, don't miss it." Lol.

Definitely gonna miss this bunch! =D

Cornelia.

2009-05-14T06:45:00.002+08:00

Her heart is racing against time. Knowing well that it is already a battle she would lose, inevitably. Because, like an equation, time is the constant variable and her heart, proportionale to the memories buried deep within her soul. As the memories stacks its weight, her heart sinks deeper and deeper but time, it moves consistently, ignorant to her feelings. Breathing out nothing but an air of arrogance. She knows she could never have the ability to change the value of time but still, she wrestles on with it. Wishing that her heart would generate enough energy to speed across the borders of time, taking control over it. She lets go of all of the weight that is pulling her heart down, letting it sink to the ground. "Memories will always remain as they are".

She lost in the battle against time because she knows she could never move in sync with it, forming an intimate dance - embracing each other with gracefulness. As she falls, beaten to the ground. Both fists, bloody and weak, she still breathes the same air. The air of arrogance. Battle, she lost but, hope, she gained when he reached out his hand.

Well, I certainly hope you all enjoyed a glimpse of (Velda, Penelope, Sophia, and Cornelia) :) If you were wondering, they are fictional characters that does not apply to anyone in particular. Lol. I just figured that if I were choose four words to describe life, it'd consist of darkness, light, romance, and well, then there is hope.

We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. Hebrews 6:19

I always end things on a random note so I might as well. Today is the last day of placement! WoohooT! I am gonna leave with a heavy heart but at the same time with a huge sigh of relief that it is finally over and of course bringing with me a truckload of memories. Now, let's just hope that I pass my AUA essay assignment okays.

Peonies.

2009-05-10T19:33:00.003+08:00

Went for Mother's Day Classic 8km walk with vannie.meiyin.and allison. :) Yes, 8km. Me. Sigh vannie is slowly converting me into a healthier being. ^.^ Anyway, thinking that there might be possible showers, I brought mr. seven along (leaving lonely annie in the house). But the weather turned out otherwise which is greattt coz can you imagine walking in the rain (?) I can and I don't think I'd last very long. Teehee. Anyway, the walk was goood but the company was wayy better ;)

Almost forgot. HAPPY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! On the way back, I thought to myself, if I'm 40, and do not have any children, I'd adopt a child. WAakaka. Can't believe I actually typed that out. Lol.

Allison.me.Vannie.

us with meiyin :)

allison and meiyin.

Aww, so sweet right?

Inspiring.

P.s. Cornelia is longing to meet you but just can't seem to find the right words to begin with. Yet.

Dancing Orchids.

2009-05-08T06:18:00.006+08:00

I wanted to so badly. Pour my heart out. Let it splatter across this page for everyone to see, hoping that somehow that'll make me feel better on the inside. I wanted to. But I didn't and I shall not. I just shut my eyes.

Anyway, lin-dy tagged me in like superrr old pics (HAha) and commented that I really look like a small girl! Back in those days... (good ol days, good ol days ;)

Then

The night shamay would not forget.

I really like this picture of us three! :D Remember how we used to go for girly outings and clubbing together gether... HEEhee.

Now

Itchy backside, smelly finger night. Wakaka.

Shamay misses her sakai cousin.

0.0 I still want to be small girl! >.<

P.s. Should I perm my hair? Yes I shall. lol.

Magnolia.

2009-05-04T18:09:00.002+08:00

A-hoy A-hoy there ;) About time to brush some dust off this blog I reckon. HEEhee. Soon, soon.

Placements are going a-ok. Not smooth sailing like I-am-totally-on-board-with-everything but it's alright. Everyday is a new day. We live and we learn. :) This is totally random but from the time I finished dinner.washed the dishes.made myself a cup of tea.till now, blogging, I did not look to see what time it is. o.0 . 0.0 Considering the fact that I still have so much to prepare for tomorrow's presentation. And also the random fact that I just like to look at time. HAha. Must have too much on my mind already. Oh well.

And also just throwing in another random fact, in case you didn't know, I dream every night. Sometimes, I even look forward to bedtime, anticipating of what I'd dream of. Lol.

Who Are You?

2009-04-29T19:11:00.009+08:00

When you want to blog but there is an invisible plunger stuck to your mind and you can't seem to unclog the words. It's just. Stuck.

When you do not have enough warmth and its a cold cold autumn night.

Warming up.

HeLLOmLe (:

From houssie-mates! :D

When you have nothing better to do and even for someone like me. Who does not usually just post up random pictures. That just shows how unwilling I am to do work and just not do anything. Bah.

Will you watch the time with me?

Anyway, since we're moving in the random sorta pace. At least I am. So, shoo! if you're on a different pace. Was randomly looking through my old entries and came across this one. http://blithering-iris.blogspot.com/2006/07/end-of-circle.html Since I conveniently let it slip my mind. I shall, on this cold cold evening, pick up from where I left.

So nice, I feel like I am traveling through time and it was 2006 :) So, we ended the night with more dancing obviously and it was just helena.christine.and i. haha and this dude that wanted to dance with helena and us, flee-ing away from the dude. And then there's this other guy. Whom I thought was kinda cute... He and california was his nickname (don't ask me why, ask me why I am so random maybe.) also participated in the competition as part of a huge group and they got 2nd place if I'm not mistaken. Anyway, yeah dance.dance.dance.

Forgot the process of it but christine went up to him and told him that I wanted to dance with him. 0.0 (!!!) I think he mumbled a "sure". 0.0 (!!!)

This is not, nope, this is not the part where girl meets boy, boy meets girl yadayada... Nope. And I cannot stress more how idiotic I reacted.

*turns away with my back facing him* *avoid any, ANY eye contact with him. The hall was really dark anyway to start of with and he's really tall to be at eye level with me but I still had my back faced against him.

*takes out my cell phone* *still avoiding eye contact with him* *and this is the part where I should just stop.* Lol.

P.s.: Helena baby I deleted my tagboard actually. HEEhee. Prefer receiving comments (if any at all) lol.

NEVER; Exists.

2009-04-28T05:58:00.003+08:00

He'll NEVER leave me,

He'll NEVER let go of me,

He'll NEVER close a door on me,

He'll NEVER hate me,

He, NEVER stops.

NEVER exists. In Him.

Actually, this post was meant to be like a hi-i'm-gonna-take-a-break-from-blogging. But then again, I guess it seems like otherwise because this fingers are itching to blog more and more. Lol. Placements started yesterday! And I got into Unit B which is the medical ward for demented patients. Actually, I really wanted palliative care though but oh well. You work with what you have and try to make the best out of it ;)

On a totally random note, cold coffee is yuck.

DEPTH.DEPTH.DEPTH.

2009-04-26T08:10:00.003+08:00

I seriously do not understand why it just doesn't stop. Why it just keeps coming. It's like a never ending supply. Keeps flowing. Sighh but I mean it's not that I'm really stressin out or anything lah. There are people out there who has twice even triple or 100 times more work than I have to deal with T.T and they are are able to cope with it. So, stop complaining.

In the meantime, housemates and I went over to Hannah's for homemade pizza-night/catching-up-with-each-other time :D :D Always always a good time just sitting.eating.chatting. Although we felt a tad bit tired from uni and such but the company of good people around you takes the tiredness away! And of course the other main source of energy also came from the yummyyummy food lah. Lol.

Qing and I :)

Hannah and Aaron. Lol. They're such a sweet couple.

Chicken.carrots.baby spinach. on top of Hannah's handrolled pizza base!

Miriam's gourmet pizza! (pumpkin.mushroom.ham.baby spinach)

Sophia.

2009-04-24T06:37:00.002+08:00

How do you start your day? The loud buzz. Eyes wide open and shut immediately,wrapping those sheets tighter around yourself. Or, in the arms of your loved one, followed by a whisper of those three words we human beings can-not and would not get enough of. They met somewhere in between the lines of serendipity and pure fate. Letting their hearts sink deeper and deeper in an immensity of love for each other. Every touch, like a breath of fresh air. Every word, like sweet symphony plucking on evey string of the heart. Every gaze, like a clock that stopped ticking- for them. They met, and as the saying goes, the rest was history.

Swing, Swing.

2009-04-23T20:41:00.003+08:00

"If you're gonna sit here and hope that it gets done without actually doing it." "You're wasting your time."

I'm not gonna sit here and wait. Neither am I gonna actually do it. I am hoping and hope sometimes sweeps me off my feet with its empty promises. And as I fly in mid-air, the hopes within itself can only hold me up that high. I quickly fall to the ground only to find that all hope is gone.

I was blog hopping earlier (yes. my not-even-half-written-essay is crying out for me even as I blog now about how I neglected it for reading random blogs) Well, if I did not read those random blogs, I would not have been blogging right now. And I would not have been asking/answering this question that many of you might have come across before. Would you rather find lots and lots of money or true love before you die? Key word being, 'find'. 'search'. It is indefinite. The probability of you finding lots of money somehow seems like it weighs more than finding your true love.

Finding true love is like walking through a forest where every tree mirrors each other and you end up running around in circles.

Finding true love is like a caught fish, gasping for air.

Finding. Searching. Indefinite. And then there is hope.

Naked.

2009-04-19T14:21:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was yet another unproductive day for me. Well, if you consider hopping from one blog to another. Reading excessively into other people's lives (mind you, most of whom I do not even know personally) - productive. Be my guest. Food for the mind lah. food for the mind. ^.^ If it wasn't for those mind feeding content spread across on my laptop screen, I wouldn't be blogging now. Because some of those content were so raw. So deep. It was as if I was looking through a glass, into the blogger's soul. There were words of sadness, brokenness. There were also quotes, a voice of wisdom. Words that were tied and untied, all in the very same sentence. Mostly, they were stripped down to the very core of their soul and their bare skin is of what is left in contact with the outside world. - Us.

I started to wonder, have I ever been there? Have I stripped. And leave apart of my soul here? Sometimes, I think I have.

For the third time. For three similar but different reasons:-

To think and to be tired of thinking are two entirely different things yet so similar.

To cry and not to cry simply because you’ve ran out of tears is so different yet so similar.

To love and to hate is so different yet so similar.

So, what do you do when your heart was pumped up with so much love, so much hope, and so much emotion and one day you just discovered that you needed to pump all of it out of your system. The question being, how do you do it? Right now, I won’t have the answer. Not for a while, or at least not until I know for myself.

To be able to say goodbye to something so precious to you and hello to something better around the corner is so different yet so similar.

I will be your audience and you can be my model. - nude.

Shamu <3>

Sand Filling.

2009-04-18T12:19:00.008+08:00

17/4/2009 YumCha Session at BoxHill

Twelve really hungry people who were really full at the end. :) Or at least I speak on my behalf. HEEhee.

Egg tart! :D

My housemates! People, meet Felicia and XuetYing :)

Thanks to Benny (guy from FOCUS)! Who made it possible. and Who made me a happy person on that day. Whee.

16/4/2009

KARAOKE session at Melb Central with xuetying.andrew.eve.and phyllis (not sure if that's the correct spelling but yea)! Sorry no pics. But you can imagine lah. Karaoke sessions can never go wrong. Especially not when you have 5 long hours to sing your heart out man! It gets you wanting more.and more. Man, we luv our karaoke :) After that, went for dinner with xuetying at Yoyogi. Not as good as we'd expected it to be (that is why people, never have high expectations *nods*) But it's okay. Because you know why? You know whyyy. We found this other place that serves OMURICE!!! For those who do not know what that is. I highly recommend you to go watch Lunch Queen (this jap drama). And I put my bet on it that you'd be craving for OMURICE! ^.^ Lately, I like that symbol also la. ^.^ ^.^ HAha. I know, so unlike me to be all updati-ve about my daily life and typing like so, I dunno. Liddat right? Lol.

Don't worry, the emo side of me will be returning soon. enough.

Sometimes, you've gotta loosen up. I miss you guys man. No joke.

The Push and Pull Strategy.

2009-04-14T12:47:00.007+08:00

What a greattt start to my Easter Break :) I tell you, nothing beats spending quality time with your best sort of friends. Seriously, endless chats (which led up to another spontaneous extension to my stay) Wheee. I wish everyday was a holiday. Holiday meaning minus-ing the pile of assignments which is still stacked up sky high I can barely breathe! *choke* Holiday meaning having nothing on your mind. Just embracing the nothing-ness and everything else that comes with it which is all in all FUN! :D Holidayy. Aahh just the thought of it. :)

One Tree Hill! *HEEhee* And this was how shamay got "tricked" into walking 2.5 km and 1000 steps (UPHILL!) Thank you Vanniee! :D It was really worth it!

vannie: may, we're taking you to this place that has really really nice scones and food but first we have to climb up this 'small hilly' mountain yea...

may: *thinking to herself that the place is on the hill* * yess foolish i know* "sure van! :)"

For those of you who don't know me well enough, I am seriousy not a big fan of walking. And being that the walk is one that will cause my muscle to pull and ache and err sweat. Lol. I don't mind hours of shopping though even if I don't end up buying anything. Lol.

So yea, you can imagine. me: "vann... how long more ah?" "harr?" "and many 'harrs' along the way. When we finally finished the 1000th step,

vannie: YAyy we did it! :D Good job may! Ok, now we can go down and makan.

may: *smacks head* you mean the makan place is not here?!?!

vannie: *smiles* my sister will drive us there.

may: *pengsan*

But it was cool shit because we had really good scones and the exercise made it seem less guilty! Nyehehehe. Thanks again vannie and meiyin and aunty Kong! ;)

Us with the deleeeecious foood :)

As always, all good things has to come to an end... And after three nights at Vannie's beautiful home but with even beautiful company (vic.meiyin.aunty kong!) Vic and I bid farewell but fear not for it is only the beginning to many many more ;)

XUETYING MY HOUSEMATE'S 21ST!!!

If you have not already noticed, the theme was BLUE! :D Hope you had a bluuu-rrific 21st xuet ;) We all luv ya!

Woah, this has got to be my most most updated post ever. As lately as, TODAY, I went out for lunch with KerYong :) Another good time spent with chats and catching up. Good Good time. Before we had to go back and well, while I know she is probably working on her essay right now, here I am blogging away. *yikes* Ok ok, better go. And that means you too. I am sure you have more important things to do than reading this...right right? o.0 Shoo!

I wrote; I am producing a silent clap partnering the air.

Ok, ok, Bai.

Wishful Thinking.

2009-04-10T13:13:00.001+08:00

Have a good easter weekend everyone!:) I hope I will. I know I will. Ok just don't think about the two assignments due the following Monday. *smacks head* xoxo Gal on the way to...

It Takes Two.

2009-04-08T05:11:00.001+08:00

Blogging from my phone now because the internet is not connecting -_-" haha swt. Though feeling a tad bit out of touch at it (feels like im texting) lol. Anyway, this isn't the first time since I've felt this way, many many times in fact. It comes and go. When it comes I often push it aside brushing it off. Obviously I did not do a good job at it coz it's back. This feeling. This urge. But I guess I'm not ready. Not yet at least. Blogsphere, you're stuck with me for a little while more dude ;) On another note, boy do I like to end things on another note lol. Xuet's post 21st celebration! You know what that means... Nyehehehe. "Tee watches Star Wars in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad. Do you really think that you can pretend to like a movie that you actually hate the rest of your life?" "I do" - how I met your mother.

Are You Bleeding?

2009-04-05T10:08:00.002+08:00

Don't you just adore waking up to a bright sunny sunday morning. Doesn't kill to know that daylight savings ended and we're back to being 2 hours away! ;) ;) And of course it's always a cherry on top when you're feeling uberly excited about something (no not about my test or presentation ugh). And nope not telling. *cough.qing.cough.* HEEhee. Remember people, it doesn't hurt to have some secrets to yourself. Although, I do have to admit it may cause slight irritations onto some nerves. Wakakaka.

"Are you bleeding? Do you wanna come inside?"

Melting Moments.

2009-04-03T11:54:00.006+08:00

Woohoot. I'm done for the day!!! :D :D And it's a friday! Don't get me wrong. I was expecting to be done earliest by 4. And look, it's not even 3 yet! *smiles with glee* Nyehehehe. Nicola really is a speedtalker/tutor/educator/just the coolest lah. I can't believe that I was intimidated by her (still am actually but in a much more cooler wayy) :) Can't believe she was one of the many triggers as to whether or not I'm on the right career path. (still is, but again, in a much more cooler wayy) Lol. Anyway as promised, I shall blog about more happening stuffs. Besides, me and uni. me and the library which I'm at right now. me and the comp lab. me and err yea.

Vicky's and Sumei's Housewarming!!! :D They moved into a really cosy and comfortable flat (Waterloo St) if I'm not mistaken HEEHEEHEE. which I will be paying more frequent visits to whenever I have the chance...hehehe.

Thank you sumei (Left) and vicky (Right) for having us!!! :D

The people that brought warmth! :) :)

Us with the hosts of the evening! :) l-r, sumei.me.vicky.vann.tim.leeroy.

Lol when vannie saw my top, she went...

"ehh"...

me: yeahh... space. LOL. I miss space. Lin-dy!!! :(

Ever had a moment when you felt your heart was melting. Melting in a sense that it's beating liquid.

xoxo - not your gossip girl. wtf. hahaha bye.

Ooo, pictures courtesy of sumei's camera!!! HEehee. Thanks sumei! Did not even ask for your permission also actually. but yeah... heehee.

Penelope.

2009-04-02T17:35:00.001+08:00

She tripped on a few steps of the stairs which leads to the front door of her studio apartment. That sent her documents off into a projectile motion, scattered around the hard concrete floor. ‘Click’ would best describe the sound of a key as she swings open the front door. She is welcomed by the scent of fresh flowers filling the air of her humble apartment. After a long day at work, she could really use a glass of wine to drown her lethargy and be filled with a sense of relaxation. ‘Clank’ would have best described the noise that came from a broken wine glass. Tossed her keys onto the black leather sofa before she plopped herself comfortably in a lying position. After a long day at work, she could really use some smooth jazz ringing softly in her ears but was reminded that she has not gotten the stereo fixed. ‘Ring’ would best describe a voice that came with it. Him. And that made all the difference.

Not so dark after all ay? ;)

Stop Swirling.

2009-03-31T13:52:00.002+08:00

I am soooooooooo thirsty right now. And just as I typed that, this guy sitting in front of me has to open his bottle of water and take a few (A FEW) gulps from it. I mean, seriously. Knock me in the head lahh. I want to pass out but I can't thats why. Great, another gulp. See, see, getting off his seat now. I bet he has to go to toilet and pee that's why. Wakakaka. Stop it.

Ok, this is the result of me. Correction. The highly dehydrated me. And no, I am not gonna scrape that off or should the correct term be deleting this post because this.is.me. (sometimes). And sometimes, I need to show what is underneath all this, no? o.0 So, do you want some or not?

Ooo. So I see you're back from the little trip to the toilet ay. ;)

Next up, Vicky's and SuMei's Housewarming! :D :D

Velda.

2009-03-29T06:17:00.002+08:00

You've seen it before. In fact, you are so familiar with the picture, it's like reciting a stanza of your favourite poem. Singing to every word of your favourite song. Familiarity strikes you once again. This time, with a much harder hit right between your eyes.

A certain someone inspired me to put these thoughts into writings. It may not be strings of beautifully constructed sentences nor would it be anywhere near captivating or inspiring. Do not expect jargons of unheard but meaningful words. Always, always lower your expectations. :)

As the cold, crisp air fills the capacity of her lungs, it sent chills up and down her spine. Winter is here and it can only mean one thing. - Darkness. At the very least, that was how her world is like and the arrival of winter nestled its way through comfortably, finding its home in her heart. -Darkness.

Everyday is a battle for most of us and it is no different for her. As she battles with the voice in her head, it echoes nothing but negativity. Her heart, pumping only what was the worst of things she'd see,hear,feel. Sending those fears through her veins and into her mind. To her, the silver lining never did exist. -Darkness.

Will she ever find the light at the end of the tunnel?

Sorry if I made you feel depressed. wth. WAkakaka. Wait till you meet Penelope ;)

Today:-

Vicky's housewarming :D Can't wait to catch up with my girlies.!

Ekkoo Friendly.

2009-03-27T15:26:00.001+08:00

Yay! Picture's pretty self explanatory. Looks like ms. Gypsy has got company afterall ;) but I'm actually getting kinda bored/lazy of taking self portraits of myself and blogging about it so this should be my last one. Unless yea. Haha. Cheers.

In Blue and Black.

2009-03-27T11:18:00.004+08:00

Today was a rather long day but it was not as long somehow, in its own ways as well. Well, the fact that the weekend is here is worth every-long-second of the lecture/tute :) The stroll down towards the computer study hall (here) didn't seem as long as it used to be too (maybe because I was also busy catching glimpse of faces passing by HEEhee). Today is graduation day at my uni for (no idea what students) but it did some serious talking to me. Today, my tutor told us that yesterday was graduation day for the nursing students, some of whom she has actually taught and now, that did some serious talking to me.

What do you want? o.0

- Wearing that black gown with red sash (for nursing students- so cool!:) draped across your
shoulders.

- Seeing the looks on our family members' faces which, if does not beam with joy
(something is seriously wrong). Lol.

- The moment. The acknowledgement. Accomplishment. Satisfaction. We've all been waiting
for.

Congratulations to you all who've made it to that moment. I'm not even your parent but already, I feel so much pride for you. :)

And how cool is it to have your birthday on a friday?! Happeee 19th to my tutemate Tanya (I think that's her name wth) hahaha. Not really close to her and she probably. never. read/reads my blog. Wakaka.

Ok, enough of ramblings, time to get back to reality now (Ugh). On another note, stay tuned if you'd wanna get to know Velda, Cornelia, Penelope, and Sophia ;)