Stop Swirling.

I am soooooooooo thirsty right now. And just as I typed that, this guy sitting in front of me has to open his bottle of water and take a few (A FEW) gulps from it. I mean, seriously. Knock me in the head lahh. I want to pass out but I can't thats why. Great, another gulp. See, see, getting off his seat now. I bet he has to go to toilet and pee that's why. Wakakaka. Stop it.

Ok, this is the result of me. Correction. The highly dehydrated me. And no, I am not gonna scrape that off or should the correct term be deleting this post because this.is.me. (sometimes). And sometimes, I need to show what is underneath all this, no? o.0 So, do you want some or not?

Ooo. So I see you're back from the little trip to the toilet ay. ;)

Next up, Vicky's and SuMei's Housewarming! :D :D

Velda.

You've seen it before. In fact, you are so familiar with the picture, it's like reciting a stanza of your favourite poem. Singing to every word of your favourite song. Familiarity strikes you once again. This time, with a much harder hit right between your eyes.

A certain someone inspired me to put these thoughts into writings. It may not be strings of beautifully constructed sentences nor would it be anywhere near captivating or inspiring. Do not expect jargons of unheard but meaningful words. Always, always lower your expectations. :)

As the cold, crisp air fills the capacity of her lungs, it sent chills up and down her spine. Winter is here and it can only mean one thing. - Darkness. At the very least, that was how her world is like and the arrival of winter nestled its way through comfortably, finding its home in her heart. -Darkness.

Everyday is a battle for most of us and it is no different for her. As she battles with the voice in her head, it echoes nothing but negativity. Her heart, pumping only what was the worst of things she'd see,hear,feel. Sending those fears through her veins and into her mind. To her, the silver lining never did exist. -Darkness.

Will she ever find the light at the end of the tunnel?

Sorry if I made you feel depressed. wth. WAkakaka. Wait till you meet Penelope ;)

Today:-

Vicky's housewarming :D Can't wait to catch up with my girlies.!

Ekkoo Friendly.

Yay! Picture's pretty self explanatory. Looks like ms. Gypsy has got company afterall ;) but I'm actually getting kinda bored/lazy of taking self portraits of myself and blogging about it so this should be my last one. Unless yea. Haha. Cheers.

In Blue and Black.

Today was a rather long day but it was not as long somehow, in its own ways as well. Well, the fact that the weekend is here is worth every-long-second of the lecture/tute :) The stroll down towards the computer study hall (here) didn't seem as long as it used to be too (maybe because I was also busy catching glimpse of faces passing by HEEhee). Today is graduation day at my uni for (no idea what students) but it did some serious talking to me. Today, my tutor told us that yesterday was graduation day for the nursing students, some of whom she has actually taught and now, that did some serious talking to me.

What do you want? o.0

- Wearing that black gown with red sash (for nursing students- so cool!:) draped across your
shoulders.

- Seeing the looks on our family members' faces which, if does not beam with joy
(something is seriously wrong). Lol.

- The moment. The acknowledgement. Accomplishment. Satisfaction. We've all been waiting
for.

Congratulations to you all who've made it to that moment. I'm not even your parent but already, I feel so much pride for you. :)

And how cool is it to have your birthday on a friday?! Happeee 19th to my tutemate Tanya (I think that's her name wth) hahaha. Not really close to her and she probably. never. read/reads my blog. Wakaka.

Ok, enough of ramblings, time to get back to reality now (Ugh). On another note, stay tuned if you'd wanna get to know Velda, Cornelia, Penelope, and Sophia ;)

A Verse Skipped.

This is totally out of randomness. And yes totally blogging from my phone comes under that category. This morning I woke up thinking that I was back home snuggled under my comforter, even with my eyes half closed, I could almost feel the airconditioner blowing its cool air towards me. The dimness of the salt lamp on my study, the bookshelf right next to my bed (its a wonder why I've not knocked my head against the hard wood YET) the smell of the night before, all contained within those four walls. It really felt as if, if I actually think hard enough, maybe, maybe in some bizarre manner I could be there. Eyes fully open now and for a moment everything seemed foreign. Went to the bathroom and it just wasn't the same. Went to make breakfast but the usuals weren't there. I was awakened by foreign. And even for a fleeting moment, the feeling of being at home was worth it all. On another totally unrelated note, there's flea market today! Will find out if gypsy will have company or not k! :) Have a good day everyone, remember, remember to be yourself at all times! Because you can't be the best and there's no such thing as 'the' best. Being the best that you can already makes you the best amongst the best ;)

'Your Hands are Mine to Hold'

What if I told you that if you'd stared hard enough at a picture, you'd be able to be in the exact same place, time, moment. The only thing that differs is our feelings. Ever wondered why you can't have the same feelings twice? It's as if we're genetically designed that way. Even if we do go through the exact same moment twice or even thrice. The feeling is never the same each time. Let's not play games with our feelings now, and concentrate on the picture here. What if I told you that if you'd stared hard enough, which would it be? :)

I can never have the same feelings for you the way I had for you.

Hot Air Balloon.

Trying to re absorb what I have just learned this afternoon but failing miserably... Sighh.

Trying to not think but failing miserably... Sighh.

Trying to try but failing utterly miserably.

If you knew, would you? :)

I sleepy now. Sleep.

With All I Am

This morning, 'If I Am' by Nine Days was ringing in my ears.

"...I would never leave you...I will not let you down..."

That reminded me that He will never leave me nor let me down. And the distance became shorter. Still in sight but shorter. :) Thought I'd share that with you...

On a lighter note, I only had 2 hours of lecture todayy whee! Disregarding the fact that I still have tonnes of work. Ughh.

'Your Fingertips'

Having your own little secrets can sometimes be the one thing you need to get you through the day. It can be the one thing that will make you smile. Smile because it makes you smile. Smile because only you know why.:) I hope that each of you have a secret for anything or even everything. cheers P.s 10 bucks if you can figure out the underlying meaning of the picture.;)

I wantt. I wantt. You want? :D

'Even if it Leads No Where'.

My eyes are half closed but this I must say.

Just got back from my aunt's place (which by the way, is a uber nice apartment :) Had home cooked nasi lemak woohoot!!! :D There's always that comfortable feeling when you're around relatives, for a moment you'd think that you're at home. Different setting but familiar faces signifies home to me already...

Somewhere between the night, I was on the couch with both my aunt and uncle watching tv and this I must say. Less is more. :) Sometimes all it takes is that silence to speak louder than words and everything else would not matter anymore... sometimes all it takes is a mutual understanding between two, tied with an invisible string, creating a harmonious strum of music notes in your ear and eventually your heart.

So what if it does not lead anywhere. What matters is the 'there' and 'then'.

P.s. I wish you love. and a splash of celebration towards life and beyond.

There Goes The Kettle.

Searching for something is definitely challenging for some yet exhilarating for others. It can be frustrating for some yet an enjoyable process for others. It can either make your heart skip a beat or break your heart all at once.

It can be the key to many unlock doors or a trap. Many many doors overlapping one another which some eventually find themselves locked in.

Searching... ... am still on that quest. Just like anyone of you. :)

Gypsy Colours.

Whee I want more dresses!:D and man I must really stop blogging from my phone lol. Have a good day everyone and remember, what you never know won't hurt you. But what you have to know and will know is what makes you, you. wth. cheers

HA HA HA.

That shows how not phone savvy. Wait. That shows how I am a total idiot when it comes to technology. WAkakaka.

Oh well, let you all appreciate the pictures err *repeatedly* :D It's not often I have pictures ok. So, yeah. Err. ok. Bye.

cheers.

'One Day I'll Fly Away'

Sigh dunno what happened but I could not publish my previous post.Anyway,sweet shanshan made this for me!:D man I'm such a sucker for handmade things heehee Now that I have my own version of rainbow umbrella though it's not waterproof its underlying meaning holds deeper than that.whee!Have a rainbow-full evening everyone...Now,who says my blog is all emo and senseless huh? wth. lol.Bye.

'One Day I'll Fly Away'

Sweet shanshan made this for me :D Now I have my version of rainbow umbrella,although not waterproof but the meaning in itself holds deeper than anything else whee!I wish everybody would find their rainbow's end and be happy forever lalala...wth lol.I will still be patiently waiting.swt -_

My Version of Alex.

Him whistling a tune. His height - at least 6 feet. His jet black hair. His side profile.

Really really looks like Wang Lee Hom.!!! Wakakaka.

Oh what a delightful walk back... :D

Of Picture Perfect Clouds.

Coming back from a visit to Mcds for a sundae makes shamay a very happy person :D :D That is why i always emphasize whenever I can that ice cream would always brighten my day no matter what. Heehee... Thanks xuetying and felfel for being apart of our little agenda earlier on...the weather is crazyy!One minute it's super sunny and then the next minute,it starts to pour.Sighh.Anyway,I had my first lesson of kungfu today!Whee!Helena honey,I will try and protect you from any bad guys from now on!xxoo. Ooo by the way, I was blogging from my mobile phone. TEEHee...

Wait For You.

I think I blog more often here in comp labs than in my room here in Ozland or even my home country. My homeee. Sigh, even the thought of it makes my heart leap. :)

First things first, I seriously do not get it. Why is it so hard for them to understand us? Do we really sound that alien to them? Do we really look that dumb? Do our expressions freak them out? And yes. Them. Is them. Sorrylah I will clear things up with at least one of them. I will. I definitely will. :) There, feeling much better now. Heehee...

Anyway, discovered really good music just now while randomly searching through playlists on imeem.com.

The other day during Promoting Health ture (by the way, every nursing student would agree with me that this module is urgh) Anyway, we were talking about promoting health to different age groups children depending on their characteristics ladeeda. And we came to Grade 4/5. (10-11 yrs old). Our tutor mentioned that it's when girls shows that boys are kinda yucky (vice versa) but in actual fact they do not actually think they are not yucky. (Her exact words ok!) hahaha... Brought me back to when I was that age, having "crushes" and "admiring" people, those day of, "Eee you-like-him and he-likes-you" Lol.

This has no relevance at all. But am having the sudden urge of diving into that sorta feeling again. The feeling of meeting someone really really nice, that tingling feeling in your heart whenever you him/her, the feeling of not really knowing whether the person feels the same way yet finding so much joy just by having feelings towards him/her. The possibility of meeting someone is so slim right now but the feeling of waiting I guess comforts me in an unexplainable manner. Doesn't make sense I know. Often when I say I feel like 'liking' someone, it means, I also dunno what it means. Hahaha...

Gonna finish my tvb drama today don't care thank you!!!

In Between.

Eeee Jovi, you got me hooked onto this song again.





放手　我的牽掛　找不到盡頭

放手　期望你幸福甚麼都有

也許　愛很深厚　然而我早看得透　


放手　至可擁有

成全　多捨不得仍然　是放手放手　放開所有　彼此更自由放手　

其實我絕非愛得不夠　





raymond lam - 愛不夠





It's seriously on repeat. Let the lyrics seep into me although I can't really comprehend the full meaning. Hehe... School's just getting more and more hectic. I really still do feel like going home just because. Just because...





Anyway, I'm quite excited at the possibility of learning kung fu from keryong's friend!!! :D :D Real chinese kung fu... HAI-YA! HEEhee.





If you really want something, you can. If you really need something, you will. You can and you will. It's simple really, but extremely difficult at the same time. I should really start making my blog more picture filled right? Lol. It's getting a little too wordy and me being such a hugee fan of a picture-fied blogg ain't doing justice to my own site at all! >.<

"If you want the rainbow, You've got to put up with the rain" ...Dolly Parton.

Not a sign of drought. At least in my lala-land.

On the Edge.

Lalala... The feeling of having a 2 hour break feels good. It should feel good because I get to use the internet for free here in the comp lab. But it doesn't. Not when you have a million other things on your mind. Not when you are not supposed to be doing what you are doing right now. No sense. Me.

But the feeling of freely expressing everything inside of me, feels exhilarating. Like taking a bucket of paint, splashing it onto an empty canvas. Adrenaline that fills the walls of my vessels as I take the leap off the edge. Blood pumping, literally feeling the thuds from the inside of my head outwardly. Again. Sense zero right now. Because to be honest, I get lost in myself sometimes.

I do not like to wear a watch now because its the one thing that I cannot take control of. But I have to let it take control. Sighhh

'you start to wonder why you're here not there'

Yesterday candlelight dinner was awesome... we should have more of it! This time with FEL too! :D

'Romeo Save me'

Sometimes I secretly psycho myself into thinking that being lazy is an inborn trait of mine. Genetically proven to be an unchangeble fact. You see, I have a whole stack of notes yet to be revised, assignments yet to be researched on and hopefully ticked off. To add on, this mess that I have created with my own bare hands does not do any justice at all but only made things more cluttered to the extent that I feel like running away from it all.

That's what I am. A runner. Not a runner that is willing to take the distance. Not a marathon runner. A runner that runs - away. Anyway talking about running... My housemate qing and I are thinking of jogging every Wednesday lol. Healthy lifestyle mahh... KEke.

Here's to my 200th post.

Angin. Halaman-halaman. Selakan. Memori-memori. Bisikan suara hatiku.

Bagaikan sebuah layang-layang yang berterbangan di langit. Segalanya di kawal oleh aku. Saat-saat pernah terpintas dalam minda aku untuk melepaskan segalanya, memutuskan tali yang ku pegangkan dan membiarkannya bebas beterbangan. Akan tetapi, segalanya milik aku untuk selamanya.

My second attempt of using my national language. HAha. Oh Bahasa Melayu! You have such a special place in my heart.

1,2,3.

It usually takes a TAG or a set of pictures or something really random that just crossed my mind for me to come back in touch with this blog of mine.

It still feels like I can run up and down the staircase, plant my butt semi permanently onto the comfortable couch whilst enjoying the many varieties of show on tv, make occasional trips to the kitchen, waiting for the scent of dinner to make its way under and into my nostrils (mum's cooking :), wait for nightfall to arrive and its time to make my way up, into my room, and under my sheets (my comfortable bed). Lie and think. Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow.

I miss you and you and you and you... and everything else!

Joshua Radin- I'd Rather be With You. :)